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[05 Sep 2009|03:00pm] |
I don't feel like myself... I haven't in awhile. I feel like I don't know who I am anymore. This summer was such a blur and I feel like it wasn't supposed to happen this way... but it did, so I guess it was meant to?
I'm so depressed...
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[19 Aug 2009|06:59pm] |
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Yay for feeling hungry again!!!!! =D
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[09 Aug 2009|06:13pm] |
So if it's a boy it will probably be Ryley..and if any of yinz make any wise cracks about it being a girls name you'll get punched ;] haaa
AND if it's a girl either Vada or Amelia (Mia for short) ...too bad Dr. Patel's daughter is Mia...EW!
My emotions have been driving me crazy. My fatigue is getting worse but thankfully my nausea is going away!
Pregnancy sucks dude. I don't recommend it at all lol But they do say it gets better in the 2nd trimester...which I'm apparently in!
Blahhh this is so insane!
Going to Babys R Us with Angie and Jenna was sweet though! And I bought a frame for the sonogram.. it's so cute =]
Can NOT wait to find out what it's going to be! Everyone thinks I'm going to have a girl.. I probably am because I want a boy..but whatev
K Bye!!!
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[27 Jul 2009|06:49am] |
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Sooo my boyfriend is super cute, super sweet and super amazingggggg!!!! =] <3
Swear he surprises me more and more everyday.
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[26 Jul 2009|09:21am] |
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July 21st was the biggest and scariest day of my life... hands down.
But I know I can handle this.
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[13 Jul 2009|07:38am] |
I was definately WAY too emotional that day when I wrote that last entry..
Him and I not being together is definately for the best.
I can't count on him and he can't count on me.
Buuuut I'm in Virginia now with my mama and I am so happy to be here =] <3
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[11 Jul 2009|11:45pm] |
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Chelsey Wallace ;; the winter coldens me for I have yet to sleep. And never will I give up trying cause you're everything to me.. You like this.
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[07 Jul 2009|06:59am] |
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Yesterday was the worst day I had in a long time. I cried all day and night. I really need to get out of this house.
I need a room mate... any takers? Seriously.
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[02 Jul 2009|07:21am] |
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Yesterday/Last night was so good!
--Frisbee at Alton..
--Smoking at Coast park..
--Hotel w/ Danny, Aidan and Chase...
--Spending the night with the boyfriend
=D <3333
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[01 Jul 2009|04:59pm] |
Life has been pretty lame lately. The mirror off of my car broke..either someone hit it with their car or someone broke it on purpose..my dad thinks I hit something. I honestly didn't so he won't let me drive and I have to drive that beat on truck. Hi, I pay for the car. And since I haven't been able to drive the car, I haven't gone out really. I don't do much.. spent the past couple weekends at Evan's lol.
I've been super stressed out about my money situation. I'm behind on my bills and just today had to get one of my student loans deferred so I don't get bad credit. It sucks. And I don't understand how people that don't do anything with their lives and have no jobs always have so much more than the people that work hard for what they have. It blows my mind.
I can't wait to leave in a week and a half. I need a vacation so bad.
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[24 Jun 2009|01:04pm] |
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So stressed out lately. Money & bills have been KILLING me. I need a second job but there is no where to apply at. Ughhh =[
On top of that my dad is being weird about the car. Like, why should I pay for it if he doesn't want me driving it? And I told him that.. if he agrees to it than that will give me money to save up. I'll just get a bus pass. Whatev
Can't wait to go on vacation!!!!!
Blah...soo not happy lately =/
Danny is still incredible though<3
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[21 Jun 2009|02:58pm] |
Whooaa drank and spent the night at Justin Hardy's.
Ha life is too weird.
Danny is really incredible =] <3
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[15 Jun 2009|09:53pm] |
Haven't updated... still been with Danny pretty much every day. He spent the night pretty much all last week. Um I got my wisdom teeth out on Friday so all my surgeries and procedures are all done and taking care of so hopefully I don't have to miss anymore work. =]
Been doing a lot of funnn stuff still. Like we went to this place like a half hour away called "the hole" it's like a mini version of Blue Hole haha.. I went with Danny, Aidan, Evan, Chase, Billy, Gabe and Steve... lost my glasses haha but was super fun. We all also went to the best ghost hunting place ever.. not sure what it's called but it was HUGE with a bell tower and stuff. It was crazy. Since I got my wisdom teeth out on Friday I couldn't drive for 24 hours because I was sedated lol so I watched the Pens game alone =[ =[ Afterward I ended up taking a bus to Carrick and Labby & Danny picked me up. We went back to Evan's and partieedddd all weekend. Spent the whole weekend there lol It was a good time.
So Danny and I are still doing really well. It hasn't been that long at all but forreal he is making me so happy. But he's getting attached already and I really don't want him to. I don't want to hurt him because I always end up hurting everybody. But honestly, I've learned so much from my relationship with John. I've had plenty of opportunities to cheat on Danny with someone that I used to like.. that obviously still likes me but I haven't and I don't plan on it. I am forreal trying to change. And I really think I have. Sometimes it's really hard though =/ haha
Okay I'm bored now. BYE!
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[01 Jun 2009|10:08pm] |
Sooo life has been pretty sweet. I don't really feel like going into great detail... BUT just been chillin with friends and having a good time. My surgery went well and I had a FIVE day weekend!!!! Ha Butttt I almost got arrested and the car towed... lol West End Bridge<3
as of last night, Danny and I are official. Suuuuper crazy! I didn't even want a relationship for forever... but hey I'm just going with the flooowwww ;]
mmm my boo<3
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[17 May 2009|11:05am] |
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So I am really happy. I've been with Danny literally every single day since he has been home. And at the same time I've still been able to chill with my friends and his friends which is awesome. I'm gonna try to remember everything I've been doing cause it's always been something different and always an amazing time.
The one day Danny, Polandro, and I went to the abandoned hotel in Mt. Washington.. and it was only supposed to be a quick little thing to smoke but it turned into an adventure ha Cause the doors were all boarded up so we had to climb and Polandro was real scared. And forreal it was like a maze. When we finally got up there the only lighter we had broke so Danny had to climb down and get a new one. Well when he comes back we had to use the new lighter for light while he rolled the blunt...well the lighter melted! He had to climb down again!!! haha But the view was worth all the hassel.
Another thing we did, the one night we went to southside with Anthony and Jay to meet up with some girls. Danny took us up ontop of a roof on Carson, like above Mike and Tony's kind of and it was real chill. After that we walked to my car which was parked at River Front Park.. we walked ahead and while they all went to my car the two of us went down to the river and just layed together on the dock. I loved it.
And for the first time on Thursday just him and I hung out alone all day/night. I don't really remember what we did... probably just drove around. Since we didn't have plans really I ended up driving to Southside and I took him to the Plateau. We sat up at the top and talked for awhile and then went for a walk. Eventually stopped somewhere in the woods and talked somemore.After that we walked back to the plateau and chilled and laid down and enjoyed the view and talked some more. I love that we can talk the way we do. Even though sometimes I don't talk much, I just love listening to him.. sometimes I just get lost in his voice<3
Now this weekend was another good one. Friday walked the back alleys of brookline lol with Jenna, Jessie, Rachel, Jesse and Vince. Eventually stopped behind the Dentist Office and chilled there. Sammi and Caitlin eventually came and then Danny. We walked to Bre's for a party. Played some flip THE cup and chilled on the deck. It was a fun time. Left around 2ish.. Danny and I chilled at Southbrook until the cops kicked us out haha so we moved to a church parking lot and just stayed together until the sun came up<3
Saturday I seriously slept alllllll day. I got ready and was supposed to go to Keith and Sydney's party with Julie and Shane, but Shane wasn't allowed to go and Julie really didn't want to. So I just went. Danny and everybody was there. I got there real late and forgot my bottle and didn't feel like drinking so we just chilled. Me, Danny, Aidan and Evan left and went to Evan's. Made and ate mad food and smoked. Didn't go to bed til real late again.. Danny and I woke up real early and went home.
Now I'm home and still thinking about him and so happy. I didn't expect any of this to happen, I didn't even want any of this to happen and neither did he, is just did. And I am actually so happy it did. I love being with him, I love how he can always make me smile and laugh. And I love when he holds me. Ahh this is so insane. I can't handle it! He's so cute and sweet and just AMAZING! =D <3
But I really hope that the Wanto, Phil, Jay and Anthony thing blows over soon though. I really don't want him to get in trouble.. because if he does he'll have to go back to Summit for months..and just those 10 days were horrible. I'd be so upset forreal =[ AndI wish John didn't ruin everything by coming to their house that one Sunday morning!! If he never did that his mom wouldn't hate me and she wouldn't have talked to my dad. Like I'm forreal so fucking pissed about it. But whatever, I hope he's happy. Cause I know I'm happy. And I aint even worrying about any of that anymore. I just hope one day my dad and his mom will be okay with us =]
[[<3]]
[[Polandro at the hotel]]
 [[soo sexxyyyy]]
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[12 May 2009|06:57am] |
=D
Danny is amazing.
<3
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[09 May 2009|10:56am] |
Sooo things have been up and down crazy lately. Danny got home and Thursday and I'm real happy about that. Also that day Angie was allowed out so we all chilled and it was amazing. Forreal, I don't know what I'd do without her.. I'd probably move to Virginia real quick ha. Umm I've been super cranky lately cause people are annoying and people are shady. And I hate hate HATE when peoples parents don't like me because of something that is NOT true. I'm so sick of John messing with my life. I hope he just forgets about me if he hasn't already. And I'm sick of handing out my money and NEVER seeing it again. Like forreal, my dad prob owes me way over a grand and same with Maria and Shane owes me a pretty decent amount of money also. askhdfksf I don't mind cause they're my family but forreal, I make this money and have NOTHING to show for it. Don't go clothes or shoes or anything. I feel like a bum. Ugh I've been so cranky lately. And Danny is already upset with me...apparently I did something shady while he was away but I have NO CLUE what that could have been? =/ The situation is crazy though, but he really does make me so happy when we're together =]
Anyways.. Last night was pretty amusing. Picked up Danny and then Aidan. Smoked at Southbrook and then went to Keith's..he wasnt' there though? lol Chase showed up and we eventually picked up Keith. Then the 5 of us went to the Pavilion and smoked. And it was a good time ha Went back to Keith's and chilled on his porch. Sydney, Julie, and Courtney eventually showed up. But by that time I was suuuuuuuper high, which makes me suuuuuper tired ha Went to get some Wendy's and dropped Aidan off and then went back to Danny's and spent the night =]<3
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[08 May 2009|06:11pm] |
quick update:
Danny is home and I am soooooo happy!!! =] he gives the best hugs and kisses everrrrrrrr<3
BUT I'm forreal about to straight up punch John in his face if I see him. Asshole.
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[06 May 2009|06:33pm] |
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hi, i pretty much LOVE my life =]
and i can't wait until tomorrowwwwwwwwww
ahhh my boo<3
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[04 May 2009|10:58pm] |
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tonight, chilled with anth, kate, jayray and ed. smoked. chillled.
goodnight.
And we know it's never simple, never easy
Never a clean break, no one here to save me
You're the only thing I know like the back of my hand
& I can't breaaatttheee, without you, but I have to.
Breaaatheee, without you, but I have to.
never wanted this, never wanted to see you hurt
Every little bump in the road, I tried to swerve.
People are people and sometimes it doesn't work out
Nothing we say is gonna save us from the fall out
It's two a.m., feelin' like I just lost a friend
i hope you know it's not easy, easy for me
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It’s the only time that I ever feel real.
Thunderstorms could never stop me,
'Cause there's no one in the world like Chelsey.